Not internet and moving makes it tough to be all posty. Posts coming soon…watch this space :)
And this time she’s pregnant.
A monumental fuck-up,
Not that it will surprise you,
I have seven months
Myself into the man I know I
Seven Months to screw up before I
I had a dream I went to McDonalds and ordered an inferiority complex with a side of fries. It was a couple weeks before the Enceladian visit. When I woke up I stared at the ceiling until it started to thump as my housemate’s boyfriend fucked her one floor up. She moaned and howled. It turned me on a little. We’re nothing more than sacks of meat chasing chemical pleasure, I thought, as I slid my jeans up past my hard-on.
I was a slave to my libido. All I could think about was girls - their eyes and thighs and bums and breasts and whimpery whispery moans. Everyone needed a reason to get out of bed in the morning. Unfortunately mine was sex, which often didn’t require getting out of bed at all.
It hurt to go more than two days without fucking, but when it happened I jerked off five times a day. Hours of porn. Gallons of cum. I sexted, I cybered. Fucked around. Flirted constantly. Even joined a dating site. One girl’s picture had her posing with a waxwork Adolf Hitler. I suppose anyone looks good by comparison.
I gulped down my meds with some whiskey and braved the cold and grey in search of fags. I’d read that people were smoking more. With the smog the way it was you had nothing to lose. I traversed the bridge and inhaled the stench, a familiar concoction of piss and vomit, before spotting some sort of tube on the ground. I stopped to inspect it. It seemed electronic – it had an LED screen - but when I poked around inside it was wet. Maybe Cam would know what it was. I shoved it in my pocket. On the way home Alaina, a fan I’d slept with the previous day, texted to let me know I was the best she’d ever had. She said I choked her just right. I wasn’t sure why I choked her. Felt good to choke someone while the world choked you.
I can’t get enough of this guy. Benedict Smith, check him out.
Debating whether or not to go out tonight. I have various invitations.
I just don’t know whether I can face the rain tonight or the hangover tomorrow.
But I really wanna get drunk and make bad decisions.
BBC Newsnight with Russell Brand and Jeremy Paxman.
Learn more in 10 minutes than you ever did in high school.